September 30th,
This day
changed my life, my family...forever. My siser & I were
fighting and she told me to go kill myself. Yes, I do cut and to
hear that, made me want the razor even more. I was getting ready to
go to my friends house, so I was straightening my hair. I was
bawling my eyes out, so as a result of being a "cutter" I
lifted up my shirt and pressed the straightener onto my skin. It
hurt but I liked it. My dad came home from work and I started
yelling at him. This turned into an arguement & I accidentally
blurted out..."that's why I burned myself!" huge
mistake. He flipped out and said he was bringing me to
the police. While on the phone with my mum, she told him
to bring me to the local hospital.
I was there for hours. I had to talk to at least 5 different
people about my "situation." There were crazy kids in
there and I actually talked to a boy. He told me that he had
been there for almost a week, missed school and everything.
This boy had told me that I didn't want to be there. This will
forever be stuck in my head. After waiting there for
hours, I was put into an ambulence and was driven to a
mental hospital.
I felt so bad. I ruined my family..my life. If there was
a gun to my head, I would gladly pull the trigger. They
put me into a room on a bed. I felt like I was in jail. They
released me at 3 in the morning. I was so tired and just wanted to
be dead. As I was talking to a therapist, her & her
asstiant had to leave because a patient was going out of
control. I felt scared, cold, alone. I thought that there was no
point in living. I had basketball tryouts that day. If only I went
to basketball then none of this would've happened.
Don't turn out like me. Don't cut. Self
harm is very serious, it's not a joke. You don't have to
read this but if you did; thank you so much, I love you. & If
anyone ever needs to talk to me then I'm
here.
September 30th, This day changed my life, my family...forever.
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Nov 9, 2011 6:56pm
xxxsportzxxx · 1 decade ago
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I am here for you. if you ever need to talk i am here. 24/7