I love all my friends so
much....but no matter how I try to explain stuff I just think they
say they understand to pity me. To say
everything's gonna be ok when obviously it won't,
no matter what. I cry at the easiest things....I feel so
alone even though I know I'm not I'm a pity to the
world. I cry every night for some reason: whether it be
because of my parents.... my school work or anything else.
I wish I could just erase my exsistence from the
world. I always feel like I don't
belong. I just want out. Out of this world. Out of my
life. I want away from this dark hole I'm living in.
I'm done. I give up. You say everything'll get
better, but it gets worse. I can't help what I feel I
let my emotions take over me. Yes I laugh and smile at school but
sadly I'm acting like everything's ok....it's
not. I want one person to say "Hey how are you"
and when I say ok I want them to look me in the eyes and
say "Tell me the truth." but will that ever
happen? Probably not. When my friends call me beautiful I
cry....Because i don't know if it's an act or not...I
don't want pity I want the truth. When my
friends hug me I want to cry because for that one
moment it feels like someones there for me, someone
cares. But I don't know if it's pity or if they
actually care...I guess I'll never
know...
I love all my friends so much....but no matter how I try to explain
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angelsoccer2 · 1 decade ago
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i care...! <3 i feel that way too! I'm only a phone call awayy/