I need help

For the past few years I've been having some issues, they aren't really bad like a lot of people's though. I just don't know how to deal with my problems. Up until this year my problems haven't been too bad. This past summer my thoughts of suicide got worse. A lot worse. I started writing in a journal, I came up with the top 12 ways I want to die.
1. an insane car accident where I die instantly
2. jump off of the Golden Gate Bridge
3. run into the middle of the road when a car is speeding, at night when people are less likely to pay attention
4. starvation
5. drowning; use a heavy object to stay underwater
6. suffocation; use a plastic bag over head and make sure it is closed tightly
7. hypothermia
8. electrocution; using a lethal electric shock
9. jump from a high balcony, window, roof of a high building, cliff
10. fast acting poisons such as hydrogen cyanide; castor beans; toxins
11. drug-overdose; combine several prescription and over the counter substances
12. carbon monoxide poisoning
My suicide thoughts and plans got worse after seeing the movie According to Greta, starring Hilary Duff, my childhood role model. I started cutting about a month ago, after confessing to a friend that I have constant thoughts of suicide. After I told her, she said we would talk to someone to someone together because she has the same problem. But nothing happened so I started cutting. I don't realize why I am doing so, but then the next day I'll look at the new scars and wonder "Why? Why did I do this?" and I can't come up with a reason. I need to tell Rox, she's the person I confessed my thoughts of suicide to. But I don't know how to do it. Someone help me, someone help me tell someone.

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I need help For the past few years I've been having some

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Madiex0 · 1 decade ago
hey, look, i had the same problems just because of a stupid by. i thought about killing myself before. i almost did it...i'll share something with you that no one knows; i ran outsde in the rain, late at night, saw a car on a drak road coming towards me..i was crying then jumped in the street. right before the car hit me, my whole life flashed before my eyes & i jumped back onto the side walk...just because of a boy...you know what stopped me? ; thinking about how stupid it would be to do that, it would just cause more pain in everyone's life around you, & all over the school, & all over the country....another life lost. trust me, i've been through a l o t. but after going through what i went through, i've gotten stronger. p l e a s e talk to me. you should text me...vent to me. i dont care. just dont do anything stupid. be strong.
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kerragan · 1 decade ago
girl tell someone and when they try to help you are goin to feel lot of different things such anger and guilt but fight those feelings tell someone you can stop if you really want to but having someone to help you stay strong is always a good thing but just remember no one can stop for you no one can make those decisions for you you have to make them and then let them help you through your decisions but whatever your problems are there r other ways to deal with them i promise tell your friend to start with and take life one day at a time let wats in the past stay in the past and always move forward set a goal for your self every day like one say to your self im gonna smile more today or today im not gonna cut jus take everything one step at a time
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TuckersGirl · 1 decade ago
Ok so I'm a cutter for a year this month.I also have similar thoughts and my friends have supported mr.talk to ur mom or parent or someone at school,if u need to vent,I am always here for u
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lulupinky100 · 1 decade ago
stay stong <3
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