Well I'm thinking of keeping an online journal..and what's not a better way than to put it up here & just vent.
Here goes nothing...

The other night i had to tell my boyfriend of 5 months that i cheated on him with my ex boyfriend. Hardest thing to do,EVER.  As Taylor says, I've never heard silence quite this loud. It was only a kiss, just a stupid little kiss. I should've never went, never left my house. i should've just stayed home like i was planning too. I'm so scared of what my boyfriend is going to do. For the most part he forgave me and were still together but I'm not sure he loves me the way that he says he does. I'm afraid he's going to leave me even though i deserve it in the worst way. I'm in love with him. It happened like 3 weeks ago before i truly knew that I was in love with him. i went to a wedding on sun day and realized it. I couldn't help from tearing up. I was able to see myself & he up there with me. We always talked about getting married someday. I'm in love with him And things are still rough and i really don't know what to do. He told me we have to work on our relationship a lot to get back to where we were but what do i do ?! I've never had this problem before. And I'm never ever like this. I feel horrible. I've never felt this way before..SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME. :(