You don't need to read this..but i've
been thinking about it too much lately so i needed to let it out.
it's nothing pretty or special but i just want to get
everything off of my chest. it's about a boy, obviously who i
was just crazy for but then things changed and thats just
life...
when i first met you, i honestly never would
have thought you would become so important to me. we started off as
just friends, then i called you my bestfriend..but then my feelings
started changing.. you flirted with me so much, everyone told
me you were always trying to get my attention and impress me. you
tried so hard. && then i started liking you..a
little more than anyone would have thought, including myself. we
flirted..a lot and hungout..a lot. i met your parents &&
you met mine.
i was so comfortable around you, i never felt the way i did with
you with anyone else.
and then s h e came back, but you told me you didn't
care about her anymore..i was scared, but i trusted you..too much i
guess because s h e came back again..and you left me. you
told me you wouldn't leave me. i even gave you another chance
to think about it but you already had your mind made. i was just a
stupid girl who just should have listened to her
heart. && honestly i don't regret
anything because you made me happy. it may have been for a short
amount of time but you made me really happy. you made me laugh. you
made me comfortable in my own skin. yes, i still look back at what
we used to be sometimes, but everything happens for a reason. i
still cry once in a while, only because when i was upset i would
always turn to you to make my day better or cheer me up and now
when i feel alone or scared or need somewhere to go your not there,
your no longer an option anymore. i have no one to turn to right
now. i miss the feeling i had when we were together. you made
everything better but we're over. i wish i could say that
i'm completely over you..but i'm not. i'm trying to
accept the fact that we were never supposed to last and i'm
actually doing okay. i realized that your just a stupid boy
who came into my life to make me stronger. i'm doing fine
without you, knowing that your with her all the time and she's
the one you think of that makes you happy now. it sucks for me but
you especially, because you lost something pretty damn great
and now i can go find someone who i actually deserve..someone
better than you.
You don't need to read this..but i've been thinking about
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Jul 4, 2011 2:49am
