i
w a
n t
h i
m t
o b
e
just like my diary. i wanna be able
to tell him exactly how i feel; about the world,
about people, and most of all, about
him. i wanna tell him how much i
love him,
and that my grades are slipping because i can't
concentrate on anything
but his
eyes or his smile. i wanna tell him my parents are
worried i'm on the computer too
much because i wait all day for him to sign on. ( ( and
when he does, i just stare at
his screen name till he goes away. ) ) i wanna tell him i haven't
really been eating
right; i'm never hungry anymore. i wanna
tell him that sometimes i just wanna hug
him and i want him to hold me forever and ever because i've
longed to know what
it feels like to be in the safety of his arms. i wanna tell him
that never before have i
felt this way about a boy. never ever. i wanna tell him
these things so badly without
having to fear his judgement. because criticism....baby, it
kills me. if only he knew
how insecure i am. then maybe;; he'd
understand. and that's all i want. for him
to
understand me, understand my feelings, and understand my
heart.
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i w a n t h i m t o b ejust like my diary. i wanna be able to
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