[My Life In a Nutshell]
chapter 3
things can only get better... right?

my room, is my safe haven. its bright orange and its covered in posters and pictures and just memories. my bed is a mattress on the floor, next to the window. its very happy in my room even though a lot of the stuff in here is black. I've been punished, which means no T.V. or computer for a week. wow. if my mom even paid attention she would know that i never watch T.V.  or go on the computer. my mom and stepdad are fighting, about something and i can gear Jayden crying. its midnight and i should probably be asleep but i cant when i know Jayden is crying. i walk into the hallway, and see Jayden sitting on the chair in the living room, holding his teddy bear crying, and when i look outside i see why. my family is on the front lawn yelling and screaming. i pick up Jayden.
"whats wrong little man?" i ask
"Momma and them are yelling" he sobbed.
"you want to sleep in my room?" i asked. and he nodded and put his head on my shoulder. i walked into my room and took out his fold up mattress. its a toddler mattress that fold and i keep it in my room for times like this. he fell asleep quickly. i woke up in the middle of the night, to pounding at my door.
"Give me Jayden,Muse!!!" screamed Harley.
"Hes asleep!! why are you doing this to him?! just leave him alone! hes a baby!" i screamed.
she silently walked away. i went to the kitchen to find my mom and stepdad sitting at the counter, my mom shot me a look.
"this is all your fault you know." she said to me.
"my fault?! how is this my fault?!" i said taken back.
"you should have kept your mouth shut!!!!" she screamed.
"its not my fault that you and Harley are complete animals! and you both have no respect!" i said, but shes right, its all my fault.
"Muse, your pathetic, just get out of my sight. i can look at you. you disgust me." and i walked away with tears running down my cheeks, realizing i cant save Jayden. Hes going to be raised the same way i was. hes going to act how i act. run from anyone who trys to get close. silently sulk in the corner. but i cant give up on him. i cant let this happen.
when i woke up and got ready for school i dropped Jayden off at daycare around the street. i was so tired that i didnt pay attention the entire day, until i realized i was in 4th period history and Mr. Jerchade, the prehistoric teacher calls on me to tell him when the cold war occurred. but i was saved by the bell. when i walked into the hallway i found Kim and Georgia arguing, about something. Georgia is very smart and very pretty. and Kim is pretty but really ditzy.
"I cant take her anymore Muse, we have 8 out of 9 classes together, shes driving me crazy!" said Georgia
"shes mean Muse! she keeps yelling at me!" said Kim looking at me with a frown.
"im sorry guys,you have known each other for a while now. dont you think you would be used to each other?"
we all walked in the hallway and i left them and went to lunch. I sit with Marci. Marci used to be the ugly duckling until now. she used to have braces and never wear any makeup, but now her teeth are straight, and she has long brown hair. shes beautiful. but like me shes never had a boyfriend, but boys have liked her.
"Muse!" and she greets me with a big hug. shes so happy. so alive. unlike me.
"Hey Marci. whats up?" i asked sitting next to her.
"oh nothing! do you like all your classes?" she asked.
"uuuhhh yeah, i guess.... i really hate school all together so...."
"i get it...." and she kept talking but out of the corner of my eye, i saw him. Christian was in our lunch! this is exciting he sat two tables away, with a bunch of other boys.
"Muse? Muuusssse...." she waved her hand in front of my face.
"what? oh sorry i spaced out."
"no you didnt. you were looking at somebody! who!? you havent looked at a boy since Mason!"
Mason was my first crush. i liked him for 3 years, and I thought there was a chance he liked me back, but her never  tried, so i moved on.
"nobody!" i said looking at her.
"ooooooo your looking at him! hes cute!" and she nudged her head towards Christian.
"yeah i am..."
"well, whats his name?"
but before i could answer, Melissa walked over and sat down across from us. she was a head cheer leader, and she couldnt stand the sight of me last year, but now shes sitting across from me with her friend, Cara.
"Hi Melissa....?" said Marci looking at her oddly "your sitting here im guessing?"
"yeah,well there arent that many seats or anything..."
"you mean the they booted you out of there table?" i said nudging my head toward the "popular" kids.
"no! we left by choice" chimed in Cara.
"alright whatever...."