I don't care if you'll fav this or
not
but
i just need to share this with anyone, even if it's 1 person
that i'd never know exists.
anyway, i didn't do well in my finals, and i was afraid to
show my parents the results... ( i do not study in america, the
program here is MUCH more difficult than what they teach in
american schools) so i wasn't afraid to tell them because
they'll abuse me or anything, i just know they'd be
disappointed, and then the whole mood at home will be tense.
anyway, i showed my mom the results and she kinda freaked out,
even though they weren't all that bad, just worse than what i
usually get, then my father asked how i did my finals and when i
told him that they weren't too good, i was surprised that he
didn't show disappointment, even though i know he was, he
actually told me something that really touched my stupid heart.
he said,
"you know, i just want you to understand one thing, that in
the future, your diploma will be the only weapon that will be
able to carry you on in life, and i might die tomorrow, and your
mother doesn't work because she can't do anything
beneficial here since it's not her country, and i just want
you to feel relaxed in the future, i want you to be happy and
live without being in need of something, and without being
dependent..."
this touched my heart, and i just can't imagine life without
him. i just can't! i hate him for saying that he could die
tomorrow. HE WON'T! not in 20 years! he's going to walk
me down the altar on my wedding day, i'm going to make him
promise me that he will. i just LOVE my DAD.
and a while later, my mom came to my room and apologized for
freaking out a bit when she knew that my results weren't that
good, and told me that she just wanted the best for me. it's
not like i didn't know, but i was never close to my parents,
and that was the first time she told me that. i LOVE my Mom.
and then i couldn't't stop my tears from falling, so i
called my bestie and she told me that i'm supposed to be
happy and not bawl my eyes out, and she then told me to get my
mind off that subject and think about HIM.
i did, and that's when i started crying for a hundred
different reasons:
-happy with the conversation that i had with my parents
-happy that i saw Him staring at me today at school
-happy that He looks at me too at school
-happy that i may have a chance of getting to know Him better
-sad because i wanted Him right NOW
-sad because i was disappointed in myself for not doing well my
finals
-and everything else that i wouldn't cry from and stay strong
and keep in myself for a year.
i don't know if today was a good day or a bad one, but it
sure as hell was a VERY emotional day...
