haveyou ever been in love?
horrible isn't it? it makes
you so vulnerable. it opens your chest,
and opens up your heart and it means that something can get inside
you and mess you up. you build up all these defenses, you build up
a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one
stupid person, no different from any other
stupid person, wanders into your
stupid life...You give them a piece of you. they
didn't ask for it. the did something dumb one day, like kiss
you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
love takes hostage. it gets inside you. it eats you out and leaves
you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe
we should just be friends' turns into a glass
splinter working its way into your heart. it hurts. not
just in the imagination. not just in the mind. it's soul-hurt,
a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. i
hate love.
