.Always.Wanting.More.
Part 7 *Chelsea*
Why did I leave? Why did I even
go? I don't know, all I know now is that I need to get out of
here. That look in his eyes, it makes me want to change him. It
makes me want to be with him. It's devilish but comforting.
He's mysterious but I feel like I know everything about him.
I just don't know right now. I have to snap out of it. I need
to be with Brett to save my perfect reputation, to make my
parents proud, to have everything be right. I got into my car and
just sat there. I want to go back and have everything be wrong,
but right. I want my life to be different. I want to not have to
care. F*ck it, I'm going back. No I can't. I went against
myself and just pulled out. I took a drive wherever I could drive
to. Anywhere to just get away from everything. I did a lot of
thinking, I thought about what my life would be like if I chose
Dillan and if I didn't. He's been with that girl Kelly
ever since freshman year. I looked down into my lap and saw a new
text message from Brett.
Hey we need to talk...
dinner at Vincent's at 6?
I couldn't say no so I drove
back home and showered. I braided my hair and put on a sun
dress, jean jacket, wedges, a necklace, and a Juicy charm
bracelet Brett got me last
year.(http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=31579499 ) It was 5:50 when Brett picked me
up. He didn't even come to my door he just honked the horn. I
ran out... well not ran, as close as run you can get with heels
on. I got into the car and he didn't say anything.
"Hey cutie!" I broke the
silence.
"Hi, you look great." He
didn't sound like he meant it.
"Thanks, so do you." I said
dryly. We drove in silence for the rest of the ride. He acted
like we were on an awkward first date in middle school where he
was afraid to talk to me. When we sat down I needed to say
something.
"Sooo what did we need to
talk about?"
"Look Chels, I
don't know how to tell you but I need to before you hear it
before anyone else. I cheated on you with Grace DiGerarda... We
hooked up the other night after you left me. I was drunk and I
was mad. She was willing to and I couldn't turn down the
offer. You understand right?"
Is he kidding me? This isn't
happening. I needed to suck down the tears for a few seconds. He
obviously doesn't care about me he just wants me for his
image. Isn't that what I was doing to him though? Whatever. I
ripped the bracelet off my wrist and it broke. I stood up and
threw it at him.
"Yeah I completely understand
I'm glad you broke it down for me. Have fun with Grace."
I stormed out of the restaurant. I started walking. I didn't
want anybody to see me crying so I didn't call anybody. I
knew my way home from here.
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