WHY!?!! 
why am i never good for you?
i try, i try really hard to be what you want me to be but its never enough.
im not perfect, im not some superhuman im a HUMAN.
anything i do is never enough for you, im always lacking something,
and i see it. the disappointment in your eyes. so i try to live MY life the way you want me to.
but you dont see, that im killing myself over and over again for you. 
and i never let you see that it hurts me, i hide my pain, to protect you from regrets.
but why am i even trying. i should quit. clearly i dont have a point in life anymore
but im too scared to let go. i dont know whats got me holding on but it is there. 
im falling into this darkness and im scared. 
thanks dad you got what you wanted. a perfect little girl who gets the grades and listens.
you think you know everything, if you only knew the real me but you dont.
somewhere along the way i changed and you didnt accept that, so i changed some more and you still disapproved, i repeated this mistake over and over again and in the end lost myself. hope your happy. but i did learn one thing. to lie. you dont  know me anymore, im not who you think i am anymore. you still think im the sweet little girl. sorry to say but shes gone. she grew up. into a liar to make you believe what you wanted. she used to be a good strong girl. but you broke her. now shes goes around with a fake smile to make others believe shes happy with herself but the funny thing? she starting to believe her lie.