Wanna know a secret about me?

I'm insecure.
I think I'm ugly
I used to be one of those girls
who would always admit
that she thought she was pretty
I'm not anymore.

I think my friends would mush rather be with anyone but me.
I think they think 
I'm annoying, loud, and a loser.
I think they think in a sensitive little girl with no friends
but them

I'm terrified of change.
I've never ever changed a lot
but over the past year everything is changing
from my best friends 
to my house that I've lived in since age two
to my parents getting a divorce
and I'm terrified that it's going to get worse.
I even started going to a therapist a few months ago
because I was so stressed out about everything.

I can't do anything right.
I feel like everything that's done correctly in my life now
I needed help for.
My grades are getting lower.
I can't make my own friends.
I can't do anything.

See, I'm not asking for you all to feel bad.
and I'm not asking for advice.
I just felt like I needed to get it out.