I am defined by beautiful
songs. Being lost in
music. Taking care of
everyone around me. Painting my nails to match my softball
uniform. Trying to
push myself harder. Falling too hard, and loving every
minute of it, even the bad parts. Mature decisions. Immature decisions. Loving my dog, my friends, and my music
more than anything else. Not letting myself have anything I
really want because I'm terrified it won't last.
Not saying things, and
regretting it forever. Not being able to stay mad at anyone for
longer than 5 seconds. Hating to draw attention to myself, but
loving it when someone notices me. Really caring what other people think of
me. Wanting my own
car. Daydreaming
constantly. Having
things so mean pop out of my mouth that if anyone else said it,
I'd punch them in the face. Swearing all the time, and wondering if
that's why boys don't like me anymore. Mediating arguements.
Listening to songs on
loop. Being a secret
girly girl. Fitting in
everywhere, just barely. Wishing on everything.
Giving everyone advice,
but being totally lost when it comes to myself. Having an intense love of
books. Hating
things I'm not good at. Singing until nothing else
matters. Wanting to
believe. Everyone having
pretty much the same opinion of me. Not talking in class. Loyalty to my friends, but not my
crushes. Loving rain,
but only when I'm with other people or not in it.
Wearing makeup all the
time. Feeling like I
don't fit in if I don't look like everyone else.
Being strong because no one
else will. Loving
football. Feeling
guilty when lies come really easily to me. Yelling "ooh! shiny!!" when I
see jewelry. Using
proper punctuation. Missing people who I can't stand in
person. Letting my
mouth get the best of me. Wondering about everything.
Being embarrassed of my
childhood. Blindly
believing in magic. Not really trusting anyone.
Feeling totally innocent and
totally corrupted at the same time. <3
I am who
I am.
You may
hate me.
You may love
me.
Either
way,
You don't
matter.
I am defined by beautiful songs. Being lost in music. Taking
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