I am defined by beautiful songs. Being lost in music. Taking care of everyone around me. Painting my nails to match my softball uniform. Trying to push myself harder. Falling too hard, and loving every minute of it, even the bad parts. Mature decisions. Immature decisions. Loving my dog, my friends, and my music more than anything else. Not letting myself have anything I really want because I'm terrified it won't last. Not saying things, and regretting it forever. Not being able to stay mad at anyone for longer than 5 seconds. Hating to draw attention to myself, but loving it when someone notices me. Really caring what other people think of me. Wanting my own car. Daydreaming constantly. Having things so mean pop out of my mouth that if anyone else said it, I'd punch them in the face. Swearing all the time, and wondering if that's why boys don't like me anymore. Mediating arguements. Listening to songs on loop. Being a secret girly girl. Fitting in everywhere, just barely. Wishing on everything. Giving everyone advice, but being totally lost when it comes to myself. Having an intense love of books. Hating things I'm not good at. Singing until nothing else matters. Wanting to believe. Everyone having pretty much the same opinion of me. Not talking in class. Loyalty to my friends, but not my crushes. Loving rain, but only when I'm with other people or not in it. Wearing makeup all the time. Feeling like I don't fit in if I don't look like everyone else. Being strong because no one else will. Loving football. Feeling guilty when lies come really easily to me. Yelling "ooh! shiny!!" when I see jewelry. Using proper punctuation. Missing people who I can't stand in person. Letting my mouth get the best of me. Wondering about everything. Being embarrassed of my childhood. Blindly believing in magic. Not really trusting anyone. Feeling totally innocent and totally corrupted at the same time. <3
I am who I am.
You may hate me.
You may love me.
Either way,
You don't matter.
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