this backround is red.
it shows my red blood shot eyes vained from crying
for hours at a time.
the red stands for the color and wholesome organ i should have in
my upper left chest. but that has disappeared along with the
love.
this represents the blood i wish would all drain out of my body
and make me deceased,
there doesnt seem like any good reasons to live
i am living for the people who love me, but i question their love
everyday.
i do not know how anyone feels all this love would come out if i
were to just die. all the people i never thought cared about me
or people i thought didnt even know my name or that i even
exist.
these words are black.
the black stands for the deep dark hole inside my heart. more
than one person caused it,
and none of them even know how much i think about them.
they take up space in my mind that could be filled with
happy thoughts or memories.
i cant even remember what i just typed because of the
overwhelmingness of love life and happpiness which never seems to
even cross my mind for a whole second anymore.
people come and go in life and they sayyou have to fine the ones
who are willing or do stay or are worth the risk, but no one in
life will stay forever
forever is a long time, no one lives forever.
life is a struggle things may seem to get easier but in reality
it is a short break that leads to greater challenges. nothing
good ever happens no one can make you happy forever.
like i said forever is a long time nothing lasts
f.o.r.e.v.e.r
