When you left, I fought with everything I had to keep
you
When I realized you were gone, I
killed myself, holding on to the memories, and the feelings that
I still had, just incase you came back. But now, I want to
forget you, forget us and I cant. It's like I've
been trying so hard to keep you that It's automatic anymore.
I don't even want you, but nothing that i do can make
me let go. I still think about you when that song comes on,
or when i'm sitting by a fire. I still hold my breath when my
phone goes - hoping that its you. Instead of asking myself
how to get you back, i'm asking how to let you go. This
hold you have on me is ridiculous.. I don't love you anymore,
but I still think about us day in and day out. I guess i just
have to accept that you will always be there, in the back of my
mind or somewhere in my heart. I'm kidding myself
thinking that I could ever truly let go
*long but worth the read*
9 faves · Apr 14, 2011 10:53pm