You might
never read
this.
And that is
why i'm writing it here on
witty. You see, i still like
you. But i can never tell you
that. It would ruin everything.
You've hurt me so many
times. Not physically, but
emotionally. You played with me
and my heart, and just when you
had me believing you actually
wanted me and cared about me,
you chose HER. That was six
months ago. And i Still hurt
everyday. I have every reason
to hate you. I've tried
telling myself your not worth
it. But then that other day,
when i was in the choir room
playing the song i wrote, you
walked in and sat down and
listened. And when i was done,
you stood up and clapped, even
though it was just me and you
in that room. I was confused,
and i just wanted to get out of
that room. But as i tried to
walk past you, you caught my
arm and pulled me in for a big
hug. I didn't even try to
fight it. When you hurt me, i
told myself i would get over
you. But here i am, six months
later, and i still think about
you everyday. The truth is, i
will never hate you. I
can't. Even though i love
you, i will be your friend, if
that is what it takes to keep
you in my life. I keep fighting
everyday. Its almost like its a
battle to keep you in my life.
And at night, i cry myself to
sleep because I'm starting
to feel like you don't even
care. I feel lonely. And when i
see the way you look at
her ...it
tears me up inside. You say we
are friends. Well then how come
you never txt me anymore? How
come you never make time to
talk to me, or even say hi to
me in the hallway. This
morning, after crying myself to
sleep last night, the
realization finally hit me. We
will never be friends. Because
you see, you and i were never
just friends to begin with.
I've realized that being
friends with you, is like
pretending I'm a part of a
group of people that i
can't ever be part of.
It's like pretending
something is there when its
really not. I've realized
that being friends with you
actually hurts me more. I will
always care about you, so much
more than you will ever know.
I'll miss you everyday. But
i have to let go now. I'll
keep my head up and keep
trudging through life. and
maybe the heart ache will fade.
If there's one thing
I've learned, its that
people change, and feelings
change. It sucks. But its how
it is. I love you Eric. I
really
do.
Dance4ever17 · 1 decade ago
and you just made my day :) its an amazing feeling to know that other people know exactly how you feel. thanks for reading :) if you ever wanna talk you can email me at sophie_shortgrl14@hotmail.com.
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