She feels, anxious concerned, bothered and worried;;
she is unpleasent and cruel to hid the lonesomeness fealing inside her boiling up in her body.
she doesn't want help 

but knows she needs

it badly 

*she doesn't think anyone understands her 

she feels lonely because  she wont let anyone

help*
she is strung out because she afraid they will disappear, just like her friend did freshman year. she feels a discouraging and unpromising future. she feels trapped behind these walls that she has created
and connot seem to break them down for her life, you may think she's a SUICIDAL PROBLEMATIC CHILD, but inside her there;s a girl trying to show,
hiding from all the apprehesive walls holding her back;;
She is confused and lost herself somewhere.♥