I find it weird how everyone on here thinks their moms have bad taste in clothes. I got a pair of expensive high-heeled booties with studs on them for christmas. AND THEY ARE F*CKING SEXY. so I still consult my mom when i'm not sure what to wear :D
You know what hurts the most? When I was little I always looked forward to my sweet 16. I always wanted to dress up and feel all pretty for that day. Like I was a princess But now there's no point in that happening anymore. I don't have any friends nmf
The stone never feels, nor talks, or asks It doesn't matter to the Earth It isn't important to anyone But It never breaks It stays in the same place Untouched and hardly noticed While laughter and fun surrounds It But It never breaks A couple of scratches from being kicked Bruises and scars tell Its story In Its center, It felt dead But It never breaks Its insides were screaming, but Its heart was still beating And revealed a beautiful tragedy DIamond. Emerald. Ruby. Beauty. It will never break ~ This is an original poem that I based off of my life. I will never break
~ Please read til the end ~ It'll mean so much to me. I've struggled with this for years now and I don't know what to do. Who should I go to for help? Have you ever felt like this life wasn't destined for you? Like you were meant to be like the main character in a movie: once in a lifetime. Some sort of miracle even. You were meant to be special. But there was only so much you could do in reality. In truth, the only fun people ever get is going out and doing drugs. Partying. Whatever. No that isn't me at all. I feel like I was destined for more. And so my obsession began. Please don't laugh. This is all 100% true. Terra- I watched Teen Titans when I was little, but I never understood Terra's character or anything at all about her. So one day I looked it up. I saw the first episode she ever appeared in, and by the end, I had shivers up my spine. I still remember them. I swear it. I thought she was just like me. So I got hooked. I saw every episode with even the slightest mention of her name, I understood completely. And now I've realized how goddammed stupid I've been all this time, because I actually convinced myself that one day out of the blue, I'll get superpowers. That I'll be just like her. That I am her. And so it began. With every depressing moment in my life, or every resurfacing of my depressing and lonely past, I became suicidal. I wanted to go psycho and punch the wall and kick and scream, and I felt that one day, my eyes will light up and my superpowers will take control like Terra's superpowers did to her. Every time I felt depressed, her dammed memory seeps into my brain. I calm down. I relax. I have hope to carry on again to see new days. And my trust in her deepens. It's like I gave my soul to her. But when I'm not a teenager anymore, or when I finally get the idea that superpowers are not f*ckng real, I'll be depressed again, and my depression would probably be worse then it's ever been. I know. It all sounds like some My Strange Addiction episode, but there's more. A lot more. She's started appearing in my dreams and people say I look/remind them of her too. I get so angry and jealus whenever I see someone who looks more like her than I do (even though I have brown hair and brown eyes). TRUST ME. I could ramble on and on for days about this topic. Who should I see? Would a therapist help, or do I need any special pills or anything?
I'm looking for advice from anyone who sees this. I'm not looking for a specific answer. Just voice your opinion. Thank you :3 Okay this happened a long time ago (in the past school year) but I never understood what it meant. So, one day, I was in a crappy-ish mood. So I guess when I got to school I looked all grumpy (or numb, idk) but when I got there and sat down, there were two girls. They weren't together. I never even saw them talk before. But when I sat down, they STARED at me. They were just like :O. Exactly like that. I felt like I scared them somehow and I wanted to hide... But when I told my friends that and asked what it meant, they said "Don't let the haters get to you." WHAAAAH? I don't know... it makes no sense to me. What do you think their looks meant?
Am I the only one who... - Has never had a good summer? - Hates it when people use smileys in texts repeatedly? - Falls for a guy's personality? - Hates group projects more than anything? - Has absolutely ZERO friends? Because I'm sick and tired of feeling left out. Everytime, nearly everyday I cry without reason, and then my parents ask me what's wrong and won't leave me alone. Why the hell can't I be normal?
I just looooooooooooooooooooooooove how half the people I meet tell me I look too skinny, and yet the other half has to comment on my cellulite. What the f*ck is this, biology? I even looked up pictures of cellulite. Still not like mine. I'm 5'7", 110 pounds, and I have bullet holes in my freaking thighs.
I want to be a model so badly. I want to be on the catwalk and have the look. I want to be the center of attention for once in my life. I want to be the new it girl, whose face is taking over the media. That's who I want to be, But most importantly, I want to be someone. I want to go to school, and have everyone know who I am. I don't want to be ignored any longer. I want to be that girl. I'm sick and tired of staying in the sidelines and pretending I'm invisible. I want to show everyone. I want everyone who has ever ignored me in the past to regret it. I want it to eat at them. I want to prove them all wrong.
My Stupid ObsessionI have an alter ego. An alias. I refuse to tell anyone what it is because I think I may need it one day. Why? Because I actually believe in superpowers. Yeah. I know. It's stupid.Impossible. But I do. And I'm so scared of the day I finally realize I'm growing up, because when that happens, maybe I'll finally understand that they don't freaking exist.And when that day comes, I'll fall into a deep depression. Deeper than any depression I have ever been in.How could I have been so stupid? I actually let myself believe this sh/t. Why? Godd/mmit why?I hate this. But I don't have a choice. This started with that stupid TV Show. She showed up and ruined my entire life.No.She saved me. She gave me hope. She is the only reason I'm alive today. And for what? To lead me to my depressing demise. But she took my life away. She took me away. Or did she help me discover who I was?I have to keep watching the show to find all the answers, right? Because what else can give me any closure?January 16, 2006. CancelledWhat do you guys think? Should I go on with the story? I was thinking of making it a sort of mystery thing, but I don't know. At least 5-10 likes and I'll do it. :3
My Biggest Secret right now is that I have a list of all my favorite supermodels. I resort to them when I can't get motivated to work out or when I want to eat anything sugary. But no matter what, it doesn't work. It makes me feel even worse. It doesn't matter what I do. I'll always be a big, fat hairy acne monster. Why won't I let it go?
IS IT GOOD? :D Criticism is welcome. - - - An unknown instinct. A simple thought. That I need you here no matter what. I’m so weak and I don’t want to fight There’s still a part of me that says I’ll be alright So I’ll stay this way, by your side forever I’ll be here through whatever I have no choice under this spell And I’ll keep saying that all is well To my friends, family, everyone here Because I’m in love with my biggest fear