~IM SORRY ITS NOT GONNA BE PRETTY I JUST HAVE TO LET THIS OUT~
Looseing a brother is completely diffrent than loosing a grandma or grandpa or mom or dad or a cousin.. its a whole lot worse its like someone pulling out this HUGE part of you. it like someone ripping out this chunk of your heart.. and no one understands how much this hurts... because of cancer i cant talk to really the only person i can trust.. it hurts so much more. be thankful for your brother or sister because i would do ANYTHING to have him back.. and through all of this i 12 and i stood my his bedside when he went through chemo or a rough patch i was there for him. i was there when he died he was my HERO! he tough me so much.. thank you big brother<3

~i love you. rest easy.<3~