Advice Please!
The Story of Us

 

I have loved him for 6 years now. I am 13. he used to come over to my house EVERY day and we would make up random businesses (plan to sell bookmarks made out of glue, a book writing company, ect.), sell snow cones, do homework, light fireworks in the backyard, walk around the neighborhood and throw mini tnt fireworks in the sewers. I have a brother who is a freshman (im in 8th grade) and so does he. we used to all four hang out, have sleep overs, go go-cart racing.... in fifth grade, i had a group of friends over and he was here with my brother, and about a month later, he told me over aim that he liked one of them. He told me not to tell anyone. I told her. it is my deepest regret. The guilt was eating away at me and i jsut couldn't do it anymore. I told him that i told her. He cussed me out, he yelled at me, he made me feel like sh●t, and i kept apologizing. I didn't see him or talk to him for a few months, and since then, when we did see eachother, we didn't talk much. It has been so awkward. I still see him from time to time at my house, but now its because he's babysitting my little brother until i get home. I know he hangs out with other girls and i think that he has a girlfriend. I saw his arm around her and my friend said that they kissed in the middle of the dance floor. I still love him. After that i told myself that  I was over him, but that was a complete and total LIE. I just couldn't let him go. And look where it's left me: staying up late at night wishing i had never told my friend he liked her. I can't help but think about everything that we could be. I am in love with someone who I don't think loves me back. I can't talk to him face to face and tell him again that I'm sorry for that because every time that I see him, we are in my kitchen with my family. I have being in love with someone who doesn't love you back. If anyone took the time to read this, WHAT SHOULD I DO?