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have four real friends.
the rest of my "friends" make it so obvious they don't want to have anything to do
with me. and honestly, it sucks so bad. i look around at all of them and see them
laughing and having fun together. every time they get heartbroken, all their friends
hate the guy instantly, and they all give each other presents in school on their
birthday. what about me? when i'm heartbroken, no one asks about me. they
actually all become best friends with the guy, no matter how bad i feel. when it's
my birthday, i get a "happy birthday!" and they walk away. when they cry, the whole
group is crowding around them, hugging them, making them feel better. if i cried,
they'd complain behind my back about what a baby i am, and how annoying i always
act. when there's no seats left at the lunch table, they all share seats with each other.
when i'm the one without a seat, i'm forced to sit at a different table. they never include
me. no matter how hard i try to fit in, it's not enough. sometimes i make it obvious
how left out i feel, but it's not like any of them care. the worst part is, i barely get to
see my true friends that actually care about me. sometimes i just want to break down
crying and tell all my "friends" how much i hate them sometimes, and how they don't
even realize, but that wouldn't change anything. what's the point anymore?

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