Oh, what did I do? I didn't mean to push you away. Did my feelings scare you? You rarely acknowledge my existence. It's been like that for way too long. Is it getting better? Is it the same? I can’t tell, but I hope it’s getting better. I don’t know how much longer I can take you ignoring me. What's wrong with me? Do you even know how much you've hurt me? Do you even care? Boy, just tell me what I've done. Tell me how to fix it. You're killing me, killing me ever so slowly. If only you knew how much you ignoring me has hurt me; how many times I’ve cried over you; how many things remind me of you; how many times I wish I’d never let you know my feelings for you. That was so long ago, nearly 2 years now. I don’t understand. How can you, the boy that has hurt me so much, still be the one I HOPEwishDREAM to be mine? How can I love you so much when you obviously don’t care about me at all?