Dear dad
i miss you alot, im glad you've changed from what you used to be
but apart of me is afraid that the monster you used to be will
return someday, i know you like your job so its good.
but honestly dad you have scared me for life in some way,
espeically when it comes to people yelling at me, i used to handle
it fine, but now i get so scared and i can't handle it. thats why
on thursday i got so scared, cause he looks so much like you when
your angry, the dark angry brown/black eyes. i just feel so
bad.
its the one person i shouldn't be scared of... in a way old man its
your fault.
but i forgive you, because your not that man anymore...
i just hope someday it go back to the days where we'd play mario
kart for hours on end and i know you Always let me win.
or when we'd watch movies for hours on end where mum would go crazy
cause she's not a fan of history.
I may not be a little girl anymore daddy but that dosn't mean i
don't miss the things we used to do..
im your little girl, daddy, inside im still that ten year old that
wants to play mario when your not studying..
i supose it was my fault in a way to i blamed you, when really it
was partly my fault to. i got caughted up in high school and its
drama's.
i became a stranger to you and for that i am sorry.
i almost destroyed our family from the way i acted. i made you and
mum fight so much and apart of me will never forgive myself
for what i did. but it was my way of crying for help.. just felt
like no one cared anymore.
for that i know it wasn't yours or mums fault, mum was studying to
be a nurse so she'd bring money into the house and you were
studying so you could do the same.
i know it was selfish but i was a little girl just wanted a hug
from her dad without been worried that she'd get yelled at for
asking.. i know you were stressed but still..
i just didn't find it fair that me and the boys had to whisper our
covosations so you wouldn't think we were figting..
not fair at all..
what im saying is i know you and i have both made mistakes.
but i'd wish you'd come home..
the old dad that i love
no longer that monster that i was just talking about..
Dear dad i miss you alot, im glad you've changed from what you
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Jul 24, 2010 6:52am
SportynShorty21 · 1 decade ago
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this is so sad. im really sorry about this.