so theres this guy... hes always been there for me... no matter what... and we have been best freinds for three years.. we have also liked eachother for three years... my boyfriends were always jelious of me and him because i always told him everything and i was alway myself around him... and the sam with his girlfriends... so we snuck around and hung out any ways... nothing ever happened between us until this year... but then on ex of mine came around and of course i had 2 give in... & now my best friends won't talk 2 me and ik now that i will never have a chance with him... but i get this feeling like everytime im around him nothing can bring me down im so happy with him ... and when we finally did kiss there were butterflies swarming around in mi stomach like you wouldn't believe... how could i do this? mi first chance @ really happieness and a forever lasting freind ship n i screw its all up? what was going through mi head?... who am i the real me would never do this EVER! who  have i become ? i really want a second chance because all i want iz him @ least as my freind because with out him i have no one 2 confess everything to and i have no one to b real around and i have no one 2 to help me thorugh every thing with family and just life in general  
ican't live with out you as my best freind :"(