I
remember
everything
like it
was only yesterday.
he had already said i love
you and i knew i did for a long time so of course i
said it back. he may not have meant it, but I couldn't help but
fall deeper into those warm brown eyes. & i'll always
remember the day we kissed. My first kiss. not like those short
and simple kisses you have going to the movies, it was a walk
on the beach on a sunny day, sand got in my
eyes. you got my hair out of my face and by the time
we just paused, i felt the whole world stop around us. we
looked into each others eyes & there it was, love. i waited
so long for that feeling. & believe me when i say i still
can feel the touch of his lips. better yet, i remember the car
ride to chicago, 4 hours we'd just be alone in your back seat,
& i'd fall asleep on your shoulder. your mom was so nice to
me and time went by fast, seeing as we'd been together five
months now. young love, i always thought he's
my first and we'll be together forever. he'd always sing to me
and it was horrible but i liked the songs and i loved him. but
after all the happiness, it had been aa year. summer came along
again and you lived up the street, but it felt like you were
gone. we saw each other once, and we were so distant. you were
with every other girl, and i was all alone.
ashamed. after that day, our love wasn't the same. you never
called anymore, you never said i love you, you forgot about my
birthday, you didn't get to see me
in florida, because
you didn't want to go with me this year, i
cried so much..& then when i got any chance at all to see
or talk to you, lies started. you didn't love
me anymore. you we're already falling for someone else. & i
was so naive.. thinking i could find the perfect guy right now,
at this age.. I was such an idiot. I really thought I was in
love with him, and I could've swore I meant
atleast something to him, but he was breaking
my heart. he was like any other guy who's
broke a girls heart in my mind. & I wasn't
in love with him anymore, I only loved the person I thought he
would always be..Things slowly ended and he didn't even have to
say it was over, because I knew it from the was he didn't look
in my eyes anymore, the way I'd try to kiss
him and he would wince, the way he moved on like I was nothing
to him. & Eventually, I thought I did too..but i was
positive about my feelings this time. He was so much to me, and
I don't know if I can ever let him go now. He might forget us,
but I'll always remember every kiss, every hug, every I love
you, every tear, everything. & to him i might be just
another who's heart he will break. I
might just be another girl he said I love you too and didn't
mean it, I might be the girl who he never wants to think about
again, but no matter how hard I try, I know I can't say the
same because I was in love, and he ruined it for me.
I remember everything like it was
yesterday...
mgirl1130 · 1 decade ago
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that was rele long...but rele good