sitting on my bed, alone...

thinking to myself ((im so stupid!))

over and over again...

i was so close..

regret!

i should have listened to the voices inside my head

NEVER a g a i n will i EVER stop...



the pain...

too much pain...


never enough [sorrow]


no sympathy for ones that long for attention...


not me!


NOT I !


i will never let go...


i was close, i was so close, i was TOO close((i tell myself))
the reminders! over and over again!!

like a movie inside my mind..playing it and replaying inside my mind!

i can still remember the incredubly fast rythm my heart pounded when i saw the blood

dripping...sliding down my arm...


onto the knife....






never again will i let go of the intense feeling of letting all the pain



LEAVE and nvr return


give me all yur pain and feel free...



im soaring like a bird, on a cloud. in the sky!
so high!


too high


i can feel my pain slowly fading...


yur face is so clear to me...i memorized it

i can feel yur breathe

i told myself i would never let go of you, and im sorry


so sorry


too sorry

i LiEd to myself....i have to let go

the pain is finaling dispearing...like the rain in the sky

after all these years...


its going away