And when i'm
desperately wishing for you sign on, i get my hopes up thinking
you might actually. Maybe in the next couple minutes you will.
But no! I left you an IM trying to express how i feel and
apologize and all i get in return is an idc, w.e., or an okay...
I know that's what i'll get this time too. But again and again i
think that this time might be different, you'll actually say
something back to me besides it's okay. One day you might come
through with that. Who knows? But for now i'm sitting here
wishing you could do better.
I guess all i want is for you to understand, get me. I know
you never will, but i can dream. All the pain i've felt has been
caused by you. Or at least that's what i tell myself every day. I
know it's me. I'm mad at myself, and i just cause more pain. I
get that but it just doesnt' help. I daydream that one day you
will know what it's like to be me, that you'll finally treat me
as a true friend. Not just someone you lie to. I guess you say
we're friends but i know you're saying that to make me happy.
Maybe try to satisfy me with that. I know you hate me or
something close to it. But it kills me to know you can't admit
it. And here i am venting to strangers cause it might help me
feel better...just a little. I'm pouring my heart out to you, yet
i'm not. I wish i could say all these things to you, but i know
i'll only recieve an idc, w.e., or okay... but i don't deserve
that. I deserve more. Or at least i hope to think i deserve
better. For now, though, i'll stick to venting hoping i'll feel
better soon. And hoping you might just care.
-Comment if you feel the same way or you actually took the time
to read this. And sorry it's so
long.
3 faves · 2 comments · Aug 21, 2009 10:24pm
mandeepandee10
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1 decade ago
aww :( this quote made me so sad! im sooo sorry :( i can relate too i think cuz i was thinking of someone while i read this..dont u hate it when they tell you things cuz theyre trying to be nice? i would really prefer honesty to lies to make me feel better :/ idk if u agree.tho it kinda sounds like it..
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xxmeganispoppinxx · 1 decade ago
ok i get that ur hurt and all but this goes for everyone..........that boy isn't worth ur pain or tears......you shouldn't have to wish for him.....all these love qoutes say the same god damn thing and i'm kinnda sickof it....i mean all it takes is a little wil-power to get over this guy!
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