THExTRUTHxIS
If only you knew how much I hate myself, if only you knew that everynight before I met you, I thought about committing suicide, and I've been deadly close to it. If only you knew how much I loved you. If only you knew how much I'd give for you to love me like you love her. If only you knew the truth. The truth is, I cry every night. Knowing somehow, you've loved her more than I could ever show. I wish I could tell you that I'm cutting again. I wish you knew that I want to call you every night just to tell you goodnight and I love you. But I know now that she has that covered. I know that if I meant that much to you, you wouldn't say those strong three words to her. If only I knew, I wouldn't have showed you how much I loved you. I would have never told you how I felt. I wouldn't be in this position of writing this quote. There's soo much you haven't figured out yet. The fact that I'm still alive is because my friends keep me going, because there are people who I've never met, and if they lost me, even though those people and I have never met, they would take their life, or try to. I'm getting this all off my chest now because maybe you'll read this and know how much I love you. But, when I saw that status... My heart dropped. The ice cold feeling spread through my body. My body is still shaking because I keep thinking about you. Maybe I have a disease, a disease that addicts me to you. I want to be good enough. I want to make you happy like she makes you. I want to make you feel amazing again. But, I know it's a waste of my time to tell you all this because she has that under control. Wow. I can't believe I'm still typing this all. I don't know how to end it... I don't know what else to say. I poured my heart out to you, I cut it out and handed it to you. I should tell you all this now while I'm venting I guess;
I don't eat, its rare that I eat an actual meal. My mom thinks I'm anorexic, it's true, I am. I deny it because I don't want to go to the doctor. And when I'm forced to eat, I feel disgusting. I wish I wasn't such a freak, and I wish I didn't love her like I do
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