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hi there, My name is Jessica, aka Jessicat.
I am 13 years old but im 14 soon
Lets get to the personal stuff shall we?

Well I've had depression since i was 9, been a self harmer since i was 9, a bulimic since i was 11, and have anorexic tendencies sometimes.

I have extreme social anxiety, its gotten to the point i hardly even go to school, and when i do i dont go to classes.

I have schizotypal/schizoid and i'm really afraid that it will turn into schizphrenia, because i think i am going insane, sometimes i hear and see things and yeah, but i dont have anyone to talk to about it, because i dont trust anyone properly with that.

My paranoia can be pretty crazy. i get paranoid over everything. big things, little things, just anything. im always thinking ''what if''

BDD in forms. i never tel people that because i take pictures a lot. i really want to be a model. but i edit the crap out of my photos, and i look hella better in them. but in real life i hate my appearance. yeah. and i see myself differently to how others see. im convinced im overweight.

stress levels are high, have been for years and years. i think stress is basically what triggered everything i have produced.

I am borderline. 

Histrionic

narcassistic 

avoidant

dependant

and obsessive and compulsive tendencies.

insomniac

I have suicidal thoughts every day, but i know i wont do it, not right now. because i do have people whod be upset. last time a lot people were upset so yeah. idk.

I do get help for all of this, and i havent found anything help me yet, ive been on two types of medication, the first fucked up my sleep, the second made me way more suicidal than i was already. I am refusing to try any more, but they want me to try more.

Ive been sexually abused multiple times, twice was rape. 

Drug addiction.

Slowly producing an alcohol addiction.

abusive relationship in the past

yeah.

a lot mvre could be said, but i dont know haha.

i guess i'll go no heh yee bye ^_^

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