wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
F. uck you.
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
I really freaking hope she breaks his heart like he broke mine.
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Ugh, you prolly don't wanna know this but Sandy just puked everywhere. So disgusting.
How are you, boo?
I'm in a slightly better mood. I'm not thinking about dying anymore, and I'm (most likely) not gonna cut tonight.
Guess what?
Spring break is coming up, it's the week after next. I'm excited. Wanna know why?
Cause Saturday before it starts I'm going to my friend's birthday bash, she's gonna be 18. Then I'm gonna hang out and spend the night with my guy friend Gio and his cousin haha, we're prolly gonna drink. That's gonna be on Monday-Tuesday. Then I go pick up Destiny Tuesday afternoon cause she's getting mouth surgery and her parents have to work so I'm driving her home from the city. Then on Wednesday I'm hanging out with her and this other girl all day. Then on Thursday one of my guy friends invited us to a party at his house. Gonna have fourwheelers and gocarts and.. Drinking lol. It's gonna be so much fun.
Plus I might go camping Friday night with some classmates. I'm excited.
I'm still kinda upset about him.. Well, more than kinda. But today I saw his angry side when a kid accidently ran into him in the hallway, and then he back talked our teacher who is pretty sweet and got detention. I feel better, like he wasn't that important.
That's what I'm trying to tell myself.
I still miss him lots :(
...
I hope you're doing good, Laurie.
Have a good break.
I love you<3
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Why does it hurt so much?
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Please answer me! Laurie, please! I miss you. I miss you so much. You don't even know. Are you dead. You are aren't you? You killed yourself last year didn't you? Did you?! You promised you wouldn't! You promised! It hurts, it hurts so much. Everything FREAKING hurts.
Why did you leave? We were best friends and you left me!
You said you wouldn't! You liar! You freaking liar!
Don't you understand what you've done to me? It hurts. I'm hurting so much more these past few days than I have since my dad used to hit me! Since my parents used to scream at each other while I hid with my brother! Since my dad tried to choke my mom to death! Since we had to hide from my dad! Since my dad burned our f. ucking house down!
And that's a lot of pain. That's f. ucking lot of pain.
I hate this. I hate living. I want to die too.
I could right now. No one's here to hear me screaming right now, and we're too far away for anyone to hear the gunshot.
I love you, even though I'm so angry and upset.
Please, please come back. Please Lauren. Please, I'm begging you.
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Dead God, it hurts so much.
I don't know how to deal with it all.
I didn't know it would hurt like this. I didn't know I would get hurt by a guy again, but worse this time. I didn't know your disappearing act would hurt so much after over a year has passed. I didn't know I would still be depressed and cut and cry myself to sleep. I didn't know.
I just didn't know.
I miss you, even though it may seem like I'm angry with you, and I still love you, even though you left me alone.
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
You're dead, aren't you?
You killed yourself.
Am I dead too? Is this my hell?
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Lauren help
Where the hell are you?!
I need you don't you understand
What happened to always being here for each other
I'm here
Where in the f. ucking he ll are you?
Answer me
You better freaking answer because I can't take this
I can't do it alone
Jacobs gone!
Gracie and Ben and Sonya and Johnny and whoever else! They all f. Ucking left! Why am I the last here?
You promised! You promised to come back
You liar! You're a liar and so are all of them! Gracie is doing better and I don't want to bother her with my problems, she's the only one who isn't a liar.
But Johnny?! He hurt me!
And Jacob? He left!
And whoever else stopped caring
I'm always alone in the end.
I can't breathe well I think I'm having an attack or something
Please come back I miss you so freaking much
I miss you
I miss you so much
I can't do this alone
Please
Can you freaking hear me??
No cause you aren't here!
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
I feel like I'm going crazy, like I can't take this anymore.
Everything hurts, everything I look at reminds me of him and it hurts so much.
He meant so much to me, and it just I n g hurts!
I feel like screaming. I feel like throwing myself off a cliff edge. I feel like cutting. I feel like going over there and throwing a tantrum and screaming at her and him but I'm pretty sure I would get arrested or he'd hit me or something.
I freaking hate it. I hate feeling like this.
I don't know what to do Lauren please help me. I don't want to feel this way anymore.
I think that it would just be easier to pull the trigger, truthfully. Then I wouldn't feel like this anymore. I wouldn't have to see their stupid smiling faces together and I wouldn't see them hug and hold hands and kiss and see him be so much happier with her than he ever was with me.
I'm crying to much I have to go..

I love you
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
I wish I was dead.
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Omg Lauren this really cute guy I like is talking to me right now and he's asking me to come over but I can't freaking drive!!!! Ugh
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
We didn't work out

Suddenly there's a big pressure to have at my school right now and I'm like one Of the last virgins I guess I should be proud
One of my closest friends is moving in a few weeks and I feel like when he does I'll be alone again:/ I already miss him.. How are you, hun?
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Crap crap crap crap crap
I didn't think it would actually happen lol http://www.wittyprofiles.com/q/6961591
But I guess I gotta keep my word..
So tomorrow I'm gonna tell him. Ohmygosh I'm so freaking nervous, haha.
Wish me luck!
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Hey, boo.
So there's this guy at school..
His name's Josh. He is soo freaking cute haha :3 He has really brilliant blue eyes and he's funny and dresses cool and is nice and ohmygosh he's just like so close to perfect.
We've been talking a bit during lunchtime.
I wish he would ask for my cell, but I know it wouldn't lead anywhere..
I guess he doesn't like me like I like him.
Anyway, I really wanna go to prom.
I'm guessing since you're an Aussie you don't know what it is haha(: Google it
I miss you, and I love you<3
Bye
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
LAUREN OHMYGOSH.
I was in the shops yesterday
And I saw a girl about 50 feet in front of me
And she looked just like you.
I'm serious, I thought it was you.
I wasn't thinking clearly I guess, I haven't had much sleep lately.
Well, anyway, I ran up behind her and turned her around and yelled "LAUREN!"
But it wasn't you..
So I apologized and the girl just laughed and said it was fine.
Then I went to the girl's room and cried for a long time.

I miss you.
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Merry Christmas, Laurie.
I love you.
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
I'm fuccking done.
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
I have a story for you.
About a week after my boyfriend and I started going out, he went to his friend's house. His friend's name is Gio.
Gio has a sister, and her name is Carmen. Carmen's 19.
My boyfriend and her kissed. Repeatedly.
I found out yesterday.
Some little freshmen told me.
So I asked him about it, and he confessed.
And I don't know what to do. Break up? Stay together?
It's all so complicated.
I don't want to be alone.
You know what?
I don't have friends. I have acquaintances . There's a difference.
Friends: Are there for you, love you, care about what happens to you, hang out with you, etc
Acquaintances: say "hey" in the hallway and eat lunch with you
Bleh.
Blah.
I don't want to be alone.
I don't want to be cheated on.
I don't want this life anymore.
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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
I had a dream about you last night.
You came back.
BLEH.
I think him and I are gonna break up soon..
I don't really want to be here anymore. I seriously have to get out of this town. They're all crazy.

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wittygirl1 · 1 decade ago
Hey, babe.
I love you.
Bye.
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