but the thing is,
a pill isn't going to give me the life i want.
a pill isn't going to give me the social life i want and the experiences i need and the special things i want to happen for me while i'm still young.
a pill isn't going to get me out of fake friendships and lonely weekends thinking about what i did wrong and how i can be a better person so i can actually have something to do that most teenagers do besides homework and studying.
sure, a pill will give me the power to be able to control myself better. it can help me be more optimistic about life. however, i cannot control other people and how they view me. so as long as i still feel lonely, i'll still be unhappy.