I fell into a deep, deep hole The surface may look brighter now, But I haven't quite found a way out of it yet. And once in a while, I fall all the way back, Sometimes even deeper.
My dentist once told me that letting go is like pulling a tooth. When it was pulled out, you're relieved, but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it wasn't hurting you doesn't mean you didn't notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. it's going to take a while but it takes some time. Should you have kept the tooth? No because it was causing you so much pain. Therefore move on and let go.
sometimes I find myself in this gapping hole of darkness. No one to help me, no one to save me. Sad for no reason and every reason. But then I think, maybe its for the best. You can't hurt people from deep in the hole.