Feeling all the emotions at once. Still, not yet. I can't reach out to you yet. I'm here, I'm still not there yet. Even when you try to close the gap and make it easier for me, I'm not the same. I'm still not there yet. You have this perfect image of me, I almost want to distort it, prove how wrong you are. I feel everything all at once. I know I'll always be trailing behind. You don't mind but I do. It hasn't been fine for a while and still. I don't know how long it'll take. I don't want you to linger around any longer. Your hopes for me don't align with my reality. You should wait, but it could be an eternity. You should, but you shouldn't have to. I'm not fine. You don't have to wait it out. I still feel everything at once. Still, time must have stopped.