Dear Dana,
So it's all coming back and I'm really scared. The thought
of everyone being like our dad. My boyfriend for example.. he
reminds me of him so much. It might be nothing, it probably is. But
the way he tries to tell me what to do, and the way his moods
change constantly, the way he loses his temper, the way he gets
obsessive over me, and the way he yells at me without hearing a
word I say, and the way he controles me, trying to make me into the
person he wants me to be. I feel like I'm always appologizing
to him for doing absolutly nothing. He even hit me the other day..
in a kind of jokingly way but it still freaked me out because I
would never want to go threw what we went threw, and your still
going threw again. The feeling of waking up and being afraid of
being in your own home, feeling trapped and just wanting to
die..
I don't know, for some reason it's all come back now,
flashbacks of our father. & I see him in everyone. Well almost
in everyone. But mostly in my boyfriend and that scares me. I
don't know what to do because if I leave him I know that this
is just all in my head and I'm insane. But if I don't..
what if I'm not and he turns out to be just like our father. My
councelor does say that it might be hard to be in a legit
relationship with someone because of this. There's only one
person that I can't ever see being like our dad.. and
that's the same guy that saves me in my nightmares from our dad
everynight. Anyway I hope that this isn't affecting you like it
still affects me. & I hope your able to move on with your life
but still not forget where you came from. Love you forever and
always,
- xoxo your sister
Dear Dana, So it's all coming back and I'm really scared.
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Aug 17, 2013 3:21pm
