in his arms

Chapter 11

“Are you happy to be home?”
I glanced up to my sister’s eyes. “Yes,” I lied.
She grinned. “Good. We missed you over here.” I nodded gently, averting my eyes from hers. “Can I get you something for lunch? A little fruit?”
I shook my head. As stupid as it sounded, fruit reminded me of Anthony.
She shrugged. “Well, okay. But don’t make this ‘skipping meals’ a daily thing. Got it?”
I bobbed my head. “Yeah, Morgan.”
I think she could tell I wasn’t in the best of moods, so she left my bedroom.
I was alone again.
Loneliness is a feeling that’s hard to describe. You’re an introvert; you spend as much time in your room and away from people as you can. You don’t open up and share your feelings, you’re not vulnerable. But, at the same time, you are constantly bored. You like the feeling of being well-put-together, but you also yearn for that someone who will allow you to trust them, who will hold you when you break down.
Loneliness is lonely. There’s no other way to describe it.
I’d never really felt solitary until that day. I’d become so used to Anthony, and he wasn’t around anymore.
We’d exchanged phone numbers and street addresses, but it’d been two days since I’d heard from him. I wasn’t sitting by the phone in anticipation for his next phone call; I wasn’t even expecting a phone call. I just hoped for one. But after two days of being alone, I lost interest, got bored, and gave up hope.
So, when my cell phone rang that day, it took me by surprise.
“Hello?”
“Hey, it’s Anthony.”
“I know,” I murmured, smiling.
“I’m sorry I didn’t call earlier. See, with this brain tumor, there’s a lot that comes with it. Like, I couldn’t talk for a good thirty hours. Like, my mind and my mouth just weren’t communicating. And when I got my speech back, the loss of movement went to my legs and—“
“Don’t worry about it,” I assured him.
“Uh, so, yeah, I was just wondering when you’d like to go on that bowling date I promised you.”
This surprised me slightly. I’d forgotten we’d ever made plans for a date. “Uh, I mean, anytime that’s good for you, I guess. I don’t know of a bowling place we’d go, though.”
“There’s a bunch in the city. Maybe later tonight? Say, 6:30?”
I was feeling awfully fatigued and tired, so part of me told me to say no, to stay home and rest, and go out another night. But I’d never been asked out before. So the other part got the better of me as I told him, “Yeah, 6:30 sounds good.”

So today I found out my mom needs to start chemotherapy treatments.
And I had to sit there and act like I didn't care.
She's never cried so hard, and I've never felt so guilty.
Don't be surprised if I don't post for a while. Honestly I think I need a break from the internet in general.
*I don't notify, please don't ask.*

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99 faves · 11 comments · Jan 15, 2013 8:35pm

rememberyourbeautiful · 1 decade ago
I'm really sorry about your mom:( stay strong
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xoshannonxo12 · 1 decade ago
oh my goodness, I am so sorry. If there is anything at all that i can do for you or your family, just let me know. Your mother and your family are in my prayers. Stay strong, and everything will be okay. <3 take all the time you need
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cheese1211 · 1 decade ago
Dont feel guilty, and dont worry, im sure she will get better, ill have her in my prayers<3
Stay Strong<3 ive been through almost the same:) and if you ever need to talk..
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Shannon* · 1 decade ago
So sorry to hear about your mom, I'll keep her in my prayers!
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LittleMissSarcastic · 1 decade ago
Im So Sorry About Your Mum <3 I Will Pray For Youu! Dont Let The People Who Demand For More Story Get To You! Take As Long As You Need ♥
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gracegreene · 1 decade ago
I'm so sorry about your mom. My prayers are with you and your family
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keep_on_smiling · 1 decade ago
Prayers for you and your family :)
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notreallyon · 1 decade ago
I'm so sorry!! I know that's probably not what you want or need to hear right now but I am. I'll keep ya'll in my prayers.
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edance123 · 1 decade ago
It's totally fine if you don't post! Family comes first especially if there's illness involved... Dont worry about a thing we will all be fine for a while! Your mother family are in my prayers<3
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MoniBird · 1 decade ago
Jesus i hope your mum is alright and will get through. done even feel any pressure to post anything for a while, you should be home supporting your mum x im praying for her <3
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finding_nemo · 1 decade ago
Oh my god I hope your mom is alright. Take your time with posting, I hate them b.tches that freak out because you don't post. I hope everthing's okay. My thoughts go out to you guys, I'm here if you need to talk.
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