As the days get closer, i fall apart more and more... i went from
happy, to okay, to depressed, to like not even living anymore... i
don't know whats wrong with me, i cut a really lot, i cant
stop crying anymore, and i think about suicide and i even have a
note written... my uncle killed himself a few years back, so i mean
i know how bad it would hurt my family... but i mean i don't
hvae the strenght to like live! i dont even know why i don't ,
i just dont DX i really want to be safed, no i am not begging for
attention or help, i just need to tell someone okay? i sing really
depressing songs, i write horribly depressing poetry, i showed my
father my cuts... they just dont see!!! my mother says nice voice!
my father says wow thats a great poem, try happy next time? my
parents say oh Damn Cat! They just dont see it, i want them to see
it! I really want to be helped okay? i mean i really do, my life is
falling apart, but who am i to complain, so many people have it so
much worse than me! truth is, if i dont get better soon, there wont
be a me... i just needed to say all of that okay? i doubt anyone
will read it, i dont matter much i know, but i mean in case
anything happens... i mean i wrote this... so uhm if you read this
thank you, but i mean im sorry for venting
Jennifer071498 · 1 decade ago
I have a really good friend who does those things. She cuts, sings sad songs, lots of other thing too. But what you should do is get help. Tell your parents you need help, do let them figure it out on there own because they might figure out too late. Just remember that you will always have someone who cares about you. I'm here if you need someone to talk too(:
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