I'm not like every other teenage girl out their
in 9th grade i was pregnant .. i had a miscarriage
and honestly the thought that i lost my kid kills me
i don't know why
but i really want a baby
i know I'm only 16
but I'm mature for my age
i think about my actions and the consequence
and i thought about this alot
my friend tessa and lystra just had their babies
and i lost mine..
it's not fair
i help tessa with her baby all the time
i treat her like shes my own
I'm there all the time
and seeing this baby and how i am with her
just makes me think how i would be right now if i didn't lose mine
its prolly a good thing i lost it tho
because in 9th grade i was so irresponsible
i wouldn't of been able to grow up
but now I'm in 11th and i'd give anything to have my baby back
it's killing me it really is
i have baby names already picked out
i honestly would be the perfect mom and seeing all these unhappy irresponsible moms
makes me sick
i know most of you are prolly like
"omg! shes 16 and wants a baby shes gonna ruin her life!"
no you don't know me age does not define maturity and you don't know where my life is going to go i could ruin my life with out a baby or i can ruin it with one but then again i can make my life great with one as well you never know what the future can be like anything can happen you , it just depends on the person and how dedicated they are into making their life into what they want. i just wanted to get all this off my chest.