This is just to vent a stupid problem, but I need it....


I play the violin in my school orchestra. I'm a first violin right now, which is the top, but I now might lose my spot. I have to play a really hard piece that I've always been bad at and beat another person who, for all I know, is amazing at this piece.. If I lose, I get bumped down to second violin. I have two days to perfect the piece. My private teacher, who I was counting on to help me, is busy and can't help right now. I'm scared and stressed. No matter how hard I try, I can't get the notes, the tune, anything right. I don't know what to do, and I can't relax or sleep well because that piece is always there, looming over me, getting stuck in my head... It's driving me crazy, and no one can help.

I'm not asking anyone to help, I just needed that. If you read it, thanks. I appreciate it. I know it's not that big of a problem, but right now, I wish I could speed time and get it over with. Writing it all down helped me sort my thoughts. Thanks.