What you gave me,
I know you gave me,
You remind me all the time.
And how you hurt me and you don’t see it.
Again, I am the child.
...
And though you tell me that you
love me,
I can’t feel it and I’m afraid to let you down.
It’s all or nothing,
I fear that something’s wrong.
How I wish you, you suffered less too
It tears us both apart.
And it’s not pretty,
the way you criticize me.
And how it breaks my heart.
I’m tired of walking on eggshells, so terrified to fail
And in order to please you I’ve abandoned myself
And though it used to hurt me when you pushed me away
I’m stronger than ever, you made me this way
How I wish you knew, how much I need you
I feel like running but I can’t abandon you
You avoid my gaze, withdraw from me these days
You punish me for trying to be all that you wanted
What more can I do?
I FEEL ABOUT MY BEST FRIEND LIKE THIS.
TAKE OUT THE LOVEE PARTS.
-Fadi Polus
