Okay so....

It was a big move. From New York to Indiana. 800 miles...that's huge. especially for the last year of middle school. but along with the move, i was worried. what friends was i going to keep and who was i going to seperate from? And i found out that answer very fast, a lot faster than i expected. My best friend, since third grade. Since I moved to New York. you know the one that knows you better than you know yourself? the one that can answer anything you ask them? the one that you can trust more than anything? yeah well, before i left during the summer. she was the one i spent all my time with. We went to New Hampshire together, and hung out almost every day. She was the one who made me laugh until i got cramps, and the one that could make me die laughing when all i really wanted to do was sit down and cry. Well anyways. During the last couple months I was there. We made some decisions. We wanted to make it a summer to remember. One that proves that we were best friends. We did some stupid things, and made some very stupid decisions. Then I had to go. It was my last day there and of course I was with her. She walked me over to say bye to my best guy friends house. (Who lived in the neighborhood across from mine) We were there for all of five minutes. Then my grandfather came to pick me up. It was time to go to the air port. We looked at each other gave each other the longest and biggest hug in the world, this was not knowing it was going to be our last for a very very very long time. Maybe forever. We had tears rolling down our face. Actually no. We were bawling. I left. School started in Indiana. I was getting used to the things here. In New York things were much different. Kids made stupid decisions. Well, pretty much everyone made stupid decisions. Then I came here. Kissing was pretty much a big deal. Well needless to say, it changed me. In a very good way. By the first month I was used to the new ways and realized that everything i had done over the summer was so stupid. Then, it was about 2 weeks before school started in New York but it was a school day for me. I get a call at 3:37 in the morning. It was her. It turns out she didn't stop doing any of the stupid stuff. She made a mistake, or decision that ruined her life. Okay. Here I am. I will admit. Maybe some of it is my fault. I introduced her to the people she started hanging out with. But I stopped. and she didn't. She wasn't going to. So then I made a decision. One that took a lot of thinking. But i told her i didn't want to be friends with her until she was done doing all of that. That I thought would stop her. But i guess that doing that stuff was way more important than our friendship. She continued doing it. Nonstop. My parents asked one day why I haven't talked to her in a while. because remember, she was the only reason my house phone would ever ring. I told them that she was making decisions that i didn't approve of and i didn't wanna get into that. Of course my mom didn't let me go that easy. My dad left and my mom started talking to me. She asked what kind of things and I told her. She didn't expect that to happen with my friend. Probably because my mom had always thought she had a "heart of gold." My mom promised she wouldnt say anything to her parents. Then a couple days later, she started talking to me about it again. She said that it would be for the best if her parents found out since she wasn't going to stop. but she also said she wouldn't tell them unless i approved because she didn't want to lose my trust. This took a lot of thinking. but after a while i realized. her parents have the right to know. their daughter, a straight A student, was making decisions every day that could ruin her life. Even though I had told her i wasn't going to be her friend anymore, she still meant so much to me and if anything happened to her, I would be devastated. So i let my mom tell. And that was the end of our friendship, maybe forever. I tried so many times explaining to her why i would do that, but she always insisted it was "to ruin her life" or "out of jealousy" She claims that I ruined her life, but I did it for a good thing. She would be the one ruining her life if I let her keep doing that stuff...