Hi, so this isn't pretty but here goes nothing...
When they call for the father/daughter
dance at my wedding, I'm going to take my mom by the hand
and dance with her, my father probably won't even be there. My
father left me when I was 3. He didn't come back for 5 years.
Now he only wants to see me when it's a good enough time for
him and when nothing else better is going on. He's the reason
for most of my insecurities. The only time he's talking to me
he's bringing me down, never has anything nice to say about me.
Sometimes he shows up and tries to take me when i'm home alone, sometimes he succeeds and
I have to find away out. Sometimes he calls late at night
when he's drunk to tell me how much he hates me, I don't
tell mom because I don't want her to worry. She has enough to
worry about, she doesn't need to worry about me. I'll be
fine. I'm fine until I see all these girls talk or watch them
with their fathers, it kills me inside. I want that. I want a guy
who gives me lectures about boys, always tells me to do my
best, yells at me when I have done wrong and encourages me, no
matter what but mostly a man I look up to. I don't have that
and I never
will...
I'm
not looking for you to feel sorry for me, heck I'm not even
sure if you'll read this. I just want you to know, no
matter how mad you get at your daddy, be appreciative that you have
one, some people don't even have that...
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Hi, so this isn't pretty but here goes nothing... When they
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