It's never getting better.
Chapter 10.
I took a shower when Caleb left. Without my stomach covered up, it looks horrible. It looks like there's a hole in my stomach. I live in Arizona, so it's warm pretty much all year round, and i wont even be able to wear my bikini. I continued taking a shower, singing songs by All Tome Low, and Rilent K. I couldn't stop thinking about it.. When i got out of the shower, i changed into something like :http://weheartit.com/entry/10866243
I flipped my hair to one side and wringed it out a little. I went to watch tv with my mom for a few minutes, when i get a text from Caleb asking me to meet him at the beach. Great. Bikini.. I went to my room and shut the door. I got into my dresser and got my bathing suit out, and put it under my clothes. Then i walked to the beach. When i got there, there were a few guys there, but not Caleb. I started getting worried, but i don't call him. I just stay calm and stand by the shore, taking my flip-flops off, and carying them. Someone comes running from behind me, and hugs me from behind. Its Caleb. I hugged him, and he said "No swim suit?" Looking at my stomach. It still hurts.. but im fine. "I wore it underneath.. "
Then he gets it and says "Oh.." With a pause. "Does it still hurt? Let me see, is it deep?" I frowned and let him lift my shirt up, and hear him say "Holy Sh*t, dude." Tears start rolling down my cheeks, the pain is getting worse and his reaction didn't make it any better. "I know, there's going to be a huge scar. I wonder if i'll ever be able to wear a bikini ever again.." I said, sort of un understandingly. I hugged him, and i needed comfort.
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