Secret #4
I have never tried
with anybody. I have
tried to try, but I've
never really properly
tried. Not very hard,
anyway. Its because
I am afraid of what
will happen if I try.
It is also because I
don't care enough
to try. Which upsets
me. I don't even see
my friends anymore
because I don't care
enough to try. I never
call them. I never talk
to them anymore or
keep in contact with
them. They don't either,
but it's my fault. Because
at one stage, they
tried. But I pushed them
away. I didn't try back.
So they just stopped
trying all together. I
miss them. But I still
am afraid of trying. I
am so sorry. I really
do try to try, but its hard
for me in ways I don't
think you can comprehend.
Sorry.