It's so unfair
I've inadvertently placed you at the center of my world;made you my everything while,to you, i'm just another one of your adoring fans.
It's not right. My heart doesn't deserve this. I've had my heart broken too many times and my love is too real for me to go through this s*** once more!
I hate myself for loving you. I hate myself for ever being like this in the first place. I only hurt myself this way. But we always want what we can't have. I can't have you. So there. It's settled. So, why can't I stop loving you yet? Why do I still want to think of only you when I lay in bed at night?
It's such a vicious cycle for me. One day I'm madly in love with one guy and the next, it's you and I swear to myself it was always you.
Yes,you've rescued me from my previous heartache, the one before you. But now, you're my problem as well as my love, my weakness. Oh, that's all you do, is make me weak. So much so that I can't make a move without you in the back of my mind. All this, and you don't even know my name?
And I swear, if I didn't love you so much, I'd hate you for making me feel this way too.
So, now I need someone to rescue me from you. To take me away to a world where your blue eyes and blonde hair don't exist. I need to escape you. I'm too far in as it is. I refuse to hurt myself again this way, know that I will, it will happen, it will hurt.It will hurt like hell. It always does. What hurts worse is that I can't stop it. It hurts me like all hell to know that, to realize that I have no capability of separating fantasy from reality. Please, let me say farewell, sweet haunting fantasy!
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