hes the guy that i so desperately try to push out of my head while at the same time cling to our memories with all my might... hes the guy that i hate because i love him and i love him because i hate him.. he's the guy that no matter what he does to himself or to me, i'll always love him... i knew him really well at one point, then he got lost, i tried finding him, but i realize he's got to find his own way back... back to me? maybe..i keep hoping that this will be my romantic love story, happy ending and all... but sadly i'm preparing myself, my heart, for yet again another disapointment.