To know i wasn't the first, hurts. To know that i wasn't the one the things were thought about. To feel like second best.These words you speak feel like an old tune sung to a different girl. You said you are the happiest with me but there was the girl before me. It was the best year of your life and happiest. If I can get past this it will be a miracle. I love you. I have never loved before you, these things im saying to you are a first for me. Your words feel fake now, I can't believe them. I need to ask questions but Im scared. But this love hurts, its not kind, sweet and gentle love, it hurts me. To know the first girl was your love and you showed it, now onto the next one, me, I get all the hand me down sayings that you originally felt for a different girl. How does someone get by that. Your my first. Why do i fell like I am always second best? You had talked to her 4 months before I met you and you were in love, how can something like that just stop so quickly! I feel like your love isnt true now, you say you love me with all your heart but how can I believe you? You said it before, will i be left in the dust, you say no now but what happened to her. Shes toast, in your past. I don't want to be the past because you are my future. Im in love but it hurts. How do i fight pain that i can't even tell you about? Im scared it will end and I will be the second one you said those things about. I feel like a test drive, just make it stop. I want to believe you but how can i knowing i wasnt the FIRST! </3
xxLLxx