& as his name popped up on my screen, my heart skipped a beat,
pulse speeding up instantly. i waited a couple seconds before
responding, so as to not seem too eager. we hadn’t talked in a
while, but it didn’t matter. a smile popped up on my face.
i waited as he typed, impatient and anticipating his next words.
“who do you like?” it read, and i could feel my heart pumping.
“i don’t really know, you?” i answered honestly, although i knew
he was the first one with a chance. my face fell as i read her name.
he’d finally moved on, he told me. and for once, he seemed
thoroughly happy. peppy almost, as if everything in his life was
finally going right. he explained to me that she liked him too, and
i could tell he was excited. we were the best of friends, but nothing
more, i told myself . a couple tears rested along my bottom eyelid,
but i blinked them away and put on a smile. i was happy for him, i
told him as i tried to convince myself the words that i was speaking
were true. as long as we stayed friends, i knew i could deal with the
rest. i was just a little too late, like always. i’d waited for him,
hopeful that he would realize I was the one. but he’d pushed ahead,
as i knew i should be doing as well. taking a deep breath, i forced
the butterflies in my stomach to calm down. it was time to move on.
it's my new beginning.