I got a question on my formspring today .
the person was asking about my ex-boyfriend .
they said ::
"why do you keep holding on to something that won't happen?"
I responded ::
why am I holding on...?
I love this kid , he's like the sunshine to my cloudy day . He made me the happiest girl in the world just by smiling at me . Whenever I would catch a glimpse of his eye I would completely lose all focus and become tongue-tied and get these terrible butterflies in my stomach .
he's the only person I have ever been nervous around .
why am I holding on ?
he made me feel on top of the world , and when we were together ... nothing else mattered . no one else mattered . just he and I .
whenever he would hold my hand I couldn't breathe , and when he wrapped his arms around me ... I would feel so safe , like nothing and no one could break me down .
he made me feel invincible .
yeah , he broke my heart . but that doesn't change how I feel about him .
and call me crazy , but I can't help myself . I can't deny how I feel .
I love him .
and I always will , no matter what he says or does .
I always will .
the anonymous questioner responded ten minutes later with a
"wow"
I replied ::
yes .
see , you don't understand .
this kid takes my breath away . a simple "hi" would make my entire week .
it's crazy , we're from different sides of the spectrum ... but we have so much in common that I never knew .
I never thought about getting involved with him when I first met him ... to be honest , I didn't want anything to do with him . but we started talking , and I found out he was actually pretty cool .
that was in 7th grade .
we're almost Sophomores now .
and I've had a "crush" on him since the beginning of freshman year .
I don't judge him for what he does .
to me , it doesn't change who he is as a person .
none of you people on here have probably ever had an actual conversation with him .
actually , maybe you shouldn't .
then you'd know how amazing he is too...
I just wish he would go on my formspring and read it .
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