05/16/2010
Dear Dad,
You know I wish we could’ve known each other before. I really wish that I could deliver this to you but that’s kinda hard to do cause of where you live. After all it’s really far away.
So there’s this guy, Chris. He’s really nice and I enjoy talking to him. You’d like him if you met him. Mom wont give him a chance. She says guys are nothing but trouble. She’s right, but he’s worth the trouble he brings.
I’m worried that we’re gonna fall apart. So, I guess what I’m asking is will you watch him for me? Don’t let him hurt himself. I worry about him. So please just watch over him. I don’t want anything to happen to him. I guess I’m just afraid that something might. I can’t be there for them. Not the way that you can. I love him, dad. I really do. He treats me right.
I love you. I’m sorry I couldn’t see you, talk to you, or anything else like that. I hope we get to see each other soon. After all I’ve been through I need to see you. I’ve been thinking about moving in with you. I don’t know though.
It’d be hard leaving my life here. On the other hand I would get to see who really cares about me. They’d come to my party, and wear my favorite color, and they’d be so sad to see me leave that they’d cry. They would apologize to mom for no apparent reason. I mean it wasn’t her fault. She wouldn’t know what happened, just that I’m gone and that she cant get me back. After all you can only live once. Once your dead, your dead for good. Maybe that’s why you haven’t come back for me, yet.